I Am the Least of These…

I am all of “those” you cast aside because they don’t belong. I am all of “those” you push away because they are vile. I am all of “those” you think you are better than.

I am the least of these.

I’m that beggar who approaches you, dirty, smelly, with snot dripping off my mustache. You try to be nice with a fake smile and a “Sorry, I don’t have any money”, but I don’t let you get away that easy. I push and push and push until you reveal another side of yourself, a more frustrated version. You really can’t stand me and I know it.

I am the least of these.

I’m that guy who is willing to stab you and go to jail just to make ends meet. That dude with murderous thoughts and actions, taking out anyone in my way, whether by feelings, glares or maneuvers. I probably just need you to come closer, but it’s so much easier to keep you away.

I am the least of these.

I’m that guy who is willing to say what you want to hear in order to get you in bed with me. That rapist who will manipulate as far as possible, but slip a pill in your drink when I see my tactics are failing. Something’s missing inside of me and I am hoping you can fill it, whether you want to or not.

I am the least of these.

I’m that guy who reads things like this and thinks I am better than all that. I am in denial about the darkness that lives and breathes within me. I might not be all that good, but surely I’m not all that bad! Sure, I have the occasional dark thought of two, but I don’t act on them…all the time. So, I try my hardest to convince myself and others, but mostly myself, that I am better than “those people”. But really, when it comes down to it, I am definitely no different, and the mere way I try to hold myself above “those” I feel I am better than, makes me only weaker, worse and lower than “those” very people.

I am the least of these.

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